Do what you wanna do that makes you happy. Maybe me leaving might be the best thing for you too. Hope you’re happy. Bye.

The last thing I need is a rude attitude.

within myself.

I haven’t had this much confidence and motivation in before. I’ve learned to let go of the ones who I don’t need and want in my life. And it feels like being in this relationship now with my boyfriend changed me into a better girlfriend, hopefully.
I used to be clingy as fuck, attached like super glue, and cried my eyes out when I didn’t get it my way. Now, it’s completely different. Clingy-ness and being attached is no longer there because damn, what the bf always say “we both have our own lives” or some shit like that. And the whole “not getting it my way”, I deal with shit and try to earn it my way.
It feels like these changes made me into a better person and I haven’t been this happy in a while.

Gotta accept and deal the fact that you’re going to be really busy. Ain’t going to be easy as saying “deal with it.” But what else can I do? I love you.

Sometimes you are so annoying, sometimes you get me frustrated, and sometimes you can tend to make me so angry to the point where I can’t deal with you at the time.

But most of the time you are the sweetest, most of the time you can make me smile when I’m feeling down, most of the time you know me better than I know myself.

Earlier today at Valley Fair, we went to visit Rachel at Gap. While we were leaving, you were holding my hand and started to dance and spin me around. Haha for some reason I found that pretty damn cute. It’d been cuter at the park, but at the mall.. Sometimes you would even want to dance on the street or even at any parking lots. Who else would do that shit? HAHA! It’s just something that you would do and something that I find it randomly cute. I haven’t told you yet, but that made my day. <3 the tiniest things/moments means a lot to me. So, thank you.

Ain’t that great at school, always thought that school was pointless, but fuck.. I need to take as much courses as I can along with passing them in order to graduate on time. I don’t want to be spending a lot of money on school when I knew I could of finished a year or two years ago. I don’t want to fuck up anymore. I fucked up my freshmen year and I don’t want that to repeat. School is pretty damn important when you know how bad you want your degree asap. And I want that degree in the palm of my hands in the next 3 years. I’ll make this happen, if not.. I’m going to give myself a punishment ): Like no sweets for a year because instead of fattening myself up, I could of been reading.. As much as I hate education, that’s the only thing that controls my life and my future.

I swear, once I have my degree I better be making hella bank. Fuck that $10/hr. I want $50/hr.

I NEED MY DEGREEEEEEE! )=